More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5 ESV
Rejoice in suffering? You can only do this if you realize that God is using your own suffering to refine you, to bring you to brokenness. It is only from brokenness that you can find the relationship with God that He desires. He wants you to surrender, then He will fill the empty place in your heart that you were numbing with drugs. He will pour in His light into that darkness and He will renew your spirit, He will make you whole. With humans, broken things are considered worthless, they are tossed into the trash; but, God desires brokenness; because, with God broken hearts can be remade into something beautiful. It is through the broken places, through the cracks, that God’s light can shine through into your heart and drive away the darkness. God will shine into your heart until you are bursting with His light, with His truth and His love. At that point, His light will burst forth through your cracks and shine on others who are in need of His light.
So, have faith, press on, continue to walk with God and He will use this refiners fire you are enduring to make you into a beautiful new creation filled with His light.
Pray: Oh, Holy Spirit come and fill my heart, kindle in me the fire of your love and let your fire turn back the roaring lion, the devil, let it refine me and burn away my desire for drugs and let it fill me with a hope that does not disappoint. Amen